Shudder

Oh honey,

Thrill me with your ecstasy.

Oh baby,

God, how your touch drives me insane.

Your nakedness and your skin.

You simply please me with your gaze.

You're so damn beautiful.

God, you fucking turn me on.

I wanna rip your clothes off,

Turn off all the lights,

And please you all night.

You can't stop me now.

You can't let go now.

Simply go with it,

And I'll show you how to be yourself.

I'll show you how to love.

Your shudders.

Your giggles.

Your moans.

Your voice.

 Your gasp.

Your touch.

Your skin.

Your grasp.

Your sin.

I'll show you how to commit to your wildest dreams.

I'll give you my sex education and my dirty tricks,

To break those hearts that have broken yours.

For now, just be with me.

Lay with me.

Laugh with me.

Everything will be alright.

Everything will just fine.

I Truly Love You

Baby, why'd you run away from me?

What'd I ever do to you?

I know I'm not perfect,

But I can still love you.

You've taught me a lot of things.

And I thank you for that.

You are the greatest person I've ever met.

And I mean that.

Because I usually don't say that to anyone,

But my mother.

But even her, I can't love her more than I Truly Love You.

You hold my secrets and my guilt.

You've taught me how to love without embarrassment.

You've taught me how to be myself,

And love those who care about me.

I Truly Love You for that.

But now you're gone.

I can't find anyone like you.

Please come back to me.

If you want me to change,

I'll change for you.

Listen to this simple thing I have to say.

There's no one like you.

You are my unique one.

My one and only true love.

Because of you,

I Truly Love You.

My Bipolar Mother

Mom,

I love you.

But you just drive me crazy.

You're so bipolar and so funny.

You try to take all the credit,

When you know it's not true.

You get angry for no reason.

And it's hard to calm you down.

For a small woman like you,

You can hit like a man.

I'm pretty lucky that I wasn't dad.

Feeling your punches and kicks,

And pranks of salt with coffee.

You're such a clean-addict and a water-addict.

You have the funniest stories and your laugh is hilarious.

I don't know what I'd do without you.

But I just hate when you get angry.

Some of the things,

I have to confess,

Are not true.

You get me angry with the false things you say.

You try to keep me away from my hobby and passions.

When you know that you can never do that.

I hope you know that it's hard for me not to love you.

But sometimes you make me want to run away.

It's funny how you change.

You're first angry and then happy.

I don't know what to do or how to deal with you.

But you are one lovable Bipolar Mother.

Adolescence of Mine

I don't know how to think.

I can't breath or drink,

With my parents complaining about,

My damn mistakes.

It's hard to deal with.

It's hard to see,

It's hard to find,

That everything I do,

Has a consequence.

I can't help or be confused,

 With my mom telling me what to do.

Mind your own business, she says.

Cause with the help I attempt to give,

She isn't amused.

I try my best, I say to myself.

I've tried everything.

I can't debate for or help out.

Because the yelling is all the same.

What more can I take,

If I'm already used to it?

I had an escape.

Now I don't have anything.

On the edge right now,

Is where I'm at.

Little angel on my right,

Devil on my left.

 

They're telling what to do.

But I can't hear two things at once.

Who do I follow?

Who do I say, screw you?

Sleep Disorder

My whole cycle's reversed,

From day to night.

I'm like a vampire,

Afraid of the day's light.

Two days without sleep,

I get really cranky.

At five in the morning,

I get really crammy.

I get really hyper,

I get really happy.

And then, I get stressed,

I get really angry.

I can't play guitar,

I can't pass the game.

I can't see right,

I can't think straight.

My dad tells me to shut it.

Bro tells me to calm down.

I don't know how to do that,

Cause right now I'm a clown.

I'm a clown, I say,

I'm a clown with a frown.

And if you have a problem,

I'm gonna throw your ass down.

Because right now I got a Sleep Disorder,

It's a cycle reversed from day to night.

I can't go to sleep with just a cup of water,

Just the morning light and off with the lights.

So with just what I said about the morning light,

I'm just about off to my slumber.

Good morning, Good Afternoon,

Good Evening and Good Night.