A Wish Forgotten

My parents...my family...

Splitting apart-we're like a pack of wolves

That were once together,

finally eating and murdering each other.

My parents make me want to run away.

It's my fault they fight...

My fault I don't make myself clear to them.

I wish...I wish I can see God.

I want to meet and see Him for myself.

I want to know His knowledge of everything.

I want to hold His hand and walk with Him.

Not just in my dreams...but when I go to school,

Or to my room and just speak about...life.

I wish I was different.

I wish I didn't lie all the time.

I wish I was blind,

So I wouldn't have these eyes for girls.

I wish God could forgive me.

I wish I could ask Him to make me reborn

And start a new life over.

I want to see my brother and fly with him,

in the clouds and ask him for advice.

I want to be his servant, just to see him.

I want to hug and kiss my brother,

and laugh with him.

I want to know what heaven is like,

and how the angels look.

I want to live again,

and have a different mind for things.

I want to be smarter and happier and not so depressed.

I want a good future.

I want to talk to God about all my problems and ask for His advice.

I know it wouldn't happen though.

My eyes, my heart is too filthy to see God.

I have sinned far too much that my plead,

for forgiveness is forgotten everyday

by God, Himself.

My tears are filthy with sin as I cry for forgiveness.

I'll never see my brother's beautiful face nor those wings that hold him.

My words art simply dust that has been swept up...

By God, Himself.