A Confession to Daddy

So, dad, I have a confession to make.

You left, leaving me like I was doll without a head.

Knowing you couldn't play with me because I was broken already.
I don't know how you sleep at night.

I don't know if you think of me.

You don't know what being left alone is like.

You pushed me away over and over.
Knowing all I wanted was to lay next to you.
I stay in the corner.

I have to cry at my own time.

But it seems that even my own time won't let me cry for you.

You've showed me not to be afraid.

By you not being here for me to keep the monsters away.

But I think you're the monster now.

I think you're the one that scares me.

I've learned to cry for the people who've been my friends.

Simply because I don't know what to feel...

For those who've left me behind.

Dad, my emotions have taken over me.

I'm not a virgin in emotions.

I already know what it's like.

Because I live in here.

I guess this is my world.

I guess this is my corner.

You're the teacher,

And I'm the dunce.

People say if I'll be happy to see you again.

Truth is, I don't think I'll ever see you again.

But I don't know if it's because of time...

Or because I just don't want to see you.

I've taken over your job as a father of me.

I tuck myself in now.

I feed myself now.

I teach myself now.

Now, I have some questions for you.

Will you ever come back?

Do you ever think of me?

Do you want me anymore in your life?

Are you really afraid of my mother...

Or just the way I feel?