I don't but I do

I think it's hard to understand me.

For I can't understand myself either.

I think it's hard to deal with me.

For I can't deal with myself either.

I don't like violence,

But I like to commit violence.

I don't like drugs,

But sleep's becoming a habit.

I don't have a dad,

But I pretend I see him.

I don't have much friends,

But I have an imaginary friend.

I don't like school,

But I wanna graduate.

I don't like judgement.

But I tend to judge without me knowing.

I don't like love,

But I've always wanted to have someone special.

I don't like kids,

But I love my sister as my own.

I don't like life,

But I have to live everyday.

I don't wanna die,

But I've tried to die.

It never works.