Voodoo's Love Spell

I felt a strong pull in bed one night.

You came to my mind.

It was just a quick thought.

It was just a thought that would never go away.

I felt your touch.

Although you were never there.

You were the girl I always wanted to touch.

But you never allowed me to.

What do you want from me?

You make me grasp the bed covers.

I could feel your silhouette above me.

Your fingers tailing,

Your tongue trailing.

Your little sexy laugh, 

Telling me I'll wake someone up.

I can't keep quiet.

You're too powerful.

Too beautiful to allow me to close my eyes.

I can't keep up with you.

You put me in this.

You wanted me to be with you.

But you've gone too far.

This...thing you do to me.

It's...so...beautiful and...agonizing.

The more you provoke me with it,

The more I need it each night.

Just how long will you have me like this?
How long will you keep abusing me with this?
I can't run away from it,
I need it more and more.
I need this...I need you.

You

My tongue was made for licking you.

My teeth were made to nibble on you.

My eyes were made to gaze you.

My lips were made to be laid upon you.

My hands were made to touch you.

My fingers were made to hold you.

My smile was made by yours.

Your skin is soft,

With such a delicate salt,

That drives me crazy.

Your smile is so beautiful.

You put me in a trance into another dimension.

Your seductive words bring control,

Into my hands, 

Telling them where to go.

Your eyes are glowing,

And silvery,

Not letting me see anyone but you.

I need you.

I want you.

I want to have you.

I want to love you.

I don't want to miss you.

I need you as my first...and last.

Little Sister

It was the day before school.

I'd just come home.

Dad was talking on the phone with mom.

Dad said mom had to stay in the hospital.

I was worried.

Dad gave me the phone.

I heard mom's voice.

It's a girl, she said.

That was happy news.

I begin to cry.

One more sibling to bug.

But now was a worry.

I might lose mom if anything goes wrong.

Everything will be okay, dad says,

After I hang up the phone.

Don't cry, he says.

All will be fine.

Next day at school.

Can't concentrate on my work.

Questions are filling my mind

About the little one coming home soon.

How will you look?

Will you have long hair?

Will you be pink or white?

Will the diaper be big on you?

Teacher calls my attention.

Because I'm dazing off.

I look at the clock.

Time, please go faster.

I ran to get home from school.

Just to see you.

Backpack breaks.

I don't care.

Car's about to hit me. 

I fall to the other side of the street

Just to see you.

Dad opened the door.

And you lay on the couch.

I'm huffing and puffing.

I don't say hi to anyone.

I just want to say hi to you.

Mom was changing your diapers.

I could see you from the door.

Fussing and waving your little arms around.

Dropped my backpack,

And ran to you.

I smiled and you caught my eye.

Your pretty little eyes and tight grip on my pinky.

Growing up was tough for you.

I know it still is.

I taught you enough for you to defend yourself.

Even now, for a 4 year old,

You've learned a lot.

You learned to fight back.

And to fall in love at first sight.

But don't keep doing that.

You've learned how to give kisses.

How to hug and say "I love you".

It seems you learned a lot from all of us.

How to curse and make funny faces.

How to have a sense of humor.

There's just one thing you need to know from me.

I love you, Little Sister.

What's the Matter?

What's the matter?

Cat got your tongue?

Cheating scratch your skin?

Can't keep your story?

You push me aside,

To screw someone else.

And then you say I'm sorry?

What's the matter?

I can't touch you?

I can't blame myself for what you've done?

Of course, it was your fault.

I turn for two seconds and I'm already bummed.

What's the matter?

I can't say I want to break up with you?

What, I can't leave the house?

Of Course...you're the one I would miss.
Of course, you already know it's part of my weakness.

And love as we know it, can kill me with one kiss.

What's the matter?

I can't love you anymore?

Am I not worthy to you anymore?

Haven't I given you everything already?

I know I'm not rich or powerful.

But being rich and powerful was not meant for us two.
For us, our most sacred thing our hearts.

And that, I've given mine to you.

I Just Like It

I don't like porn.

I just like sex.

I don't like boys.

I just like the way girls feel.

I don't like body exposure.

I just like Playboy.

I may be gay,

But I'm not that gay.

I just like it.

I don't like protection.

I just like condoms.

I don't like girly things.

I just like fashion.

I don't fall in love.

I just like to fuck.

I may be a whore.

But I'm just a whore for girls...

Not boys.

I mean, I just like it.

I don't like marriage.

I just like girlfriends.

I don't like being fat.

I just like eating.

I don't like dancing.

I just like lap dances.

I don't like money.

I just like being famous.

I may not be famous for talent.

Maybe just for sex.

I mean, I just like it.

I don't like voilence.

I just like knives and guns.

I don't like danger.

I just like daring.

I don't like getting into trouble.

I just like alcohol.

I don't like the law.

I just like women in uniform.

I don't like drugs. 

I just like Ecstasy.

I've never tried it.

But it's worth a dare.

I mean, I just like it.  

Me, myself and That Girl, Logan

You're always bothering me.

Always asking.

But I don't care.

I'll do whatever you want me to do.

I wish you were real.

I wish you could come to bed with me.

I wish I could hear your real voice.

I wish I can touch you.

You make me look at other people.

But never at you.

If you're that desperate, 

Just come out of me.

Have the fun you want.

Stop using me.

Be with me.

Don't be me.

Be that rebel you've made me.

Be that girl you made me.

Be that gay girl you made me.

Be that lesbian you made me.

Touch those girls you've always wanted to touch.

Flirt with those girls I was never able to flirt with.

Break the hearts of the girls you came in contact with.

Love the girl you wanted to love through me.

Be that girl, Logan.

Be that lesbian, Logan.

Be that slut, Logan.

Be that rebel, Logan.

Just under one condition.

I let you out.

Even if you didn't want to come out.

Be Me, Myself, and That Girl, Logan.

Special Someone

I was just naive.

I didn't know life...

Until you came along.

Until you showed me the life I needed.

You taught me how to touch.

How to feel.

Where to taste.

How to steal hearts.

I wish you could come back.

I wish you were here.

I don't want anyone else but you.

I don't want to taste anyone else but you.

I have to have you.

I have to touch you again.

I have to taste you again.

I have to be by your side again.

You're the one I love.

You're the girl I want.

You're the one I need.

Please hear me out.

You are my Special Someone. 

No Need to Love Me

It was just a fling.

It was just a one time thing.

I just wanted to touch you.

There's no such thing.

You don't exist in my mind.

You're just dessert.

You're just a tryout.

I have other things to do.

We don't exist to each other.

We don't know each other.

We don't love each other.

I have other girls to be with.

Why cry?

Why say that you love me?

Why fight over something that's not true?

Listen, there's No Need to Love Me.

Somethin' New

I didn't know what I was doing.

She came on to me.

Helping me out of my shirt.

I'm kicking my shoes off like crazy.

Just go with it, I tell myself.

Her lips, touching my sensitive spots.

Her hands all over my neck, chest, and stomach.

Her leg's rubbin' in between my legs.

She knew what she was doing.

Man, what the hell am I doing?

I'm tying tongues with her.

I'm laying kisses on her neck, chest and stomach.

I could've went lower. 

Maybe just a little lower.

Maybe a lot lower.

Clothes are almost completely off.

Blanket's about to cover us.

Light's about to go dim around us.

But her mom might catch us, damn it!

She says to stop for now.

We'll continue later on.

Not now, she says.

Okay, I agree for now.

I'm a little mad.

Just a little.

Man, if we were only alone.

Just us two.

That would've been Somethin' New.

Girls Lol

You make me want to spin around.

You spoil me,

Just by me looking at you.

Your beautiful laughs and soft lips...

Really turn me on.

Your perfect bodies and soft hands.

Your gorgeous faces...

Baby faces, mature faces, teen faces...

I don't care.

I still love you all.

Your little tests of dares...

Just to see if we're good enough for you.

You want the perfect girl/boy for your style.

Emo, Goth, Punk, Glamourous, Wild, 

Simple, Nerdy, or simply... daring.

Your little flirts and seductive questions.

Your soul-staring eyes and crazy smiles.

Girls... Lol. 

My Deadly Sins

You urge me to fuck.

But I try to hold that.

You urge me to lie.

But I still tell the truth.

You urge me to run away.

But there's no way to stay away from home.

You urge me to kill.

But it's my job to protect.

Such eyes for girls.

But with no luck.

You say you'll make me beautiful.

But I haven't gotten more beautiful at all.

You force me to lie.

To steal to survive.

But I've fought that for quite some time.

I've learned to work for what I want.

Temptations.

You make me walk,

With a weapon in my hand.

But each time,

I just throw it on the floor...

Right beside you.

How long will it be to rid My Deadly Sins?

Not Mine

What more do you want from me?

I've given you everything.

I've given you my life.

I've given you my soul.

I knew not to sell it,

But I gave it to you.

I thought you could make life better.

I thought you could make my life better.

But I was wrong.

You are simply nothing.

Nothing.

But a lie and a coward.

You live a lie... inside of me.

You live with destruction... inside of my head.

You live with sex... inside of my nerves.

You live with pain... inside my emotions.

You live with sin... inside of my skin.

You feel what I feel.

I know you can.

Simply because you are me.

You've created a monster and yet,

I still have a bit of myself to fight you back.

It's a sacrifice... but I'm willing to do it.

I'm willing to get rid of you.

Just this once.

And you can float on to someone else.

Eat their mind and soul.

Not mine. 

Seduce My Darkness (Original French Translation)

Le monde a fait de moi sanglot.

Cry sur mon propre erreurs inconnues.

Ceux que je me sens ne sont pas bonnes ou de mauvaises.

La nature humaine a refusé et m'a trahi.

Bien, je ne suis pas pur, ni un pécheur.

La lame m'a assassiné dans la claustrophobie.

Leurs voix ont transpercé mon cerveau avec leurs lances.

Mes mains ne peut pas défendre votre territoire.

Je ne peux pas supporter la douleur et le bruit.

Je plaide pour être invisible à ce monde.

Je suis infecté à ce monde.

Je suis jugé par l'hypocrisie et cruel.

Accusez-moi de leur arrogance et de problèmes.

Je vous prie de me sortir de cette bataille de la mine.

Je suis troublé et vidé de mes émotions que doit être une préoccupation.

Mon esprit est sur le bord de cesser de fumer.

Pourtant, vous êtes venus pour moi ... mon ombre.

Vous avez chanter ta berceuse pour moi et entouré de vos désirs coupables.

Oh, l'hallucination de vos fantasmes et de tristesse.

Comment ça me pousse à votre extase.

Vous m'avez tendu une embuscade à vos besoins terrifiant.

Votre voix a fait de moi votre marionnette.

Je suis votre enfant, votre esclave.

Je suis perdu votre orphelin trouvé par votre amour péché.

Vous avez m'a accordé le don de la beauté et l'érection.

Succombez moi avec ton amour et l'enlèvement exotiques.

Laissez-moi à l'agonie pour plus de votre torturer et de cruauté.

Laissez-moi un appétit d'amour et de destruction.

Je bois le sang comme un toast à la renaissance et le péché.

Vous m'avez fait renaître dans votre monde.

Vous m'avez point dans votre charme d'amour.

contes de fées et de devinettes effacer mon souvenir de la vie.

Vous avez effacé mon identité et leur personnalité.

Satisfaire mon besoin de nostalgie.

Invoke mes plus sincères pensées et les désirs.

Exposer mes veines au sel amer de la terre.

Color me avec votre amour dangereux.

Faites-moi obéir à celui que j'aime.

Garde-moi de la lumière crucial.

Protégez-moi dans les ténèbres de tes ailes.

Protégez-moi dans mon sommeil dans la journée, 

Et Venture avec moi à travers nos nuits.

Vous avez pris sur moi.

Vous avez fait de moi votre marionnette.

Votre pouvoir est devenu plus fort pour moi.

Votre échos de l'amour m'ont effondré à la fatigue.

Votre mirage m'a privé de mes sens.

Je ne peux plus vous garder dans mon cœur, 

Pourtant, je sais que vous êtes toujours là.

Vous avez trouvé ma gorge pour mettre fin à ma vie.

Votre poignard ne fait pas peur.

Sachez que je suis n'a pas peur de vous.

Votre menace appelle encore à mon amour.

Vous ne pouvez pas me détruire.

Pour vous seulement détruire votre marionnette.

Vous avez peur de perdre moi ... votre main perdra bientôt ce poignard.

Et nous serons de nouveau ensemble ... pour l'éternité.

To Stepdad

I wasn't sure if you were able to be my dad.

Turns out I was wrong.

You showed me things I never knew when I was little.

Like video games and cars and Freestyle music.

I know a couple times while growing up,

We disagreed on some things.

Like what I was feeling and 

Why I was coming home late from school.

You've always told me great stories about you and P,

and how much Doritos gave you heartburn 

And how much you love to eat rice and beans.

And how you used to steal car parts.

And make your car better with the parts you stole.

And the pranks you used to do to your cousins.

 

I know it's been hard to see me growing up,

and not the little girl you met.

I know it's been hard to get the things 

You wanted to get me now.

But just to let you know,

I don't need anything expensive from you.

I've learned to work for my money and my things.

You keep it for your studio and the gifts you'll buy for ma.

I'll help you out with music.

You can bet on that.

I'll save up for the best equipment 

To kick ass in the studio.

 

Over time, I realized my dad isn't here in my life.

He's on the other side of the world,

And you're here with my siblings, my mom, and me.

 

I'm hoping one day, you'll see me in the hospital 

After I give birth to my child.

And that you'll be able to walk me down the aisle,

When I get married.

I mean, so far and maybe forever,

You're the only dad I have.

I mean, I don't see my dad as my dad anymore.

It's you who I see as my dad.

To My Mother

Dear mother,

 I know I sneezed before I could say mama.

I laughed when you told me that.

I know I couldn't prevent the violence

That we went through.

But we've come a long way.

From what you and I have suffered,

And the stories you've told me.

 

I know I've said some things to you,

But I don't mean anything wrong

And I will never mean anything wrong.

You've raised me enough for me to say

That you were brave enough to.

 

I know you're sick inside your body.

Your health condition 

Has made me worry more and more of you.

But your soul is still healthy.

For the love you've given me has made me stronger.

 

And even if you're not there to tuck me in at times,

Because you're tired,

Your heart with mines,

Has made me stronger,

And will always make me stronger.

 

I know that every night,

You'll always sleep soundly and peacefully.

Besides Isabell bothering you.

And Michael asking for something to eat.

 

You've taught me enough to raise kids of my own.

You've taught me enough to take care of myself.

I know we've said some things that we don't agree on.

But I also know that we don't know 

What might happen to each other later on in life.

And I know that we'll always be alive inside.

For even death cannot separate us.

I've always made a promise to you since I was young.

I promise that I will continue raising your kids as you raised them.

I promise to keep you in my heart always even after we're gone.

I promise to be buried next to you.

I promise to love you,

Even if you don't agree with what I may become.

I promise to be here when you grow old.

And make your dinner and put you to bed.

I promise to love you as a daughter that you have raised and loved.

Why, Father?

Why, Father?
I don't know how you walked away

With pride like that.

I don't know how you threw

me away like a crumpled piece of paper.

You promised you'd come back.

You Promised!

Why, Father?
After a minute you said that,

I knew it wasn't true.

Seeing the man you really were.

It had been nine years,

Since I've seen your face

And heard your "I love you"s.

Why, Father?
I guess I'm not worth anything to you.

You abandoned me and ran to the other side.

You took advantage of my life and my feelings.

You laughed at me while I suffered.

Why, Father?
I tried to confront you,

And you hid yourself from me.

I don't know you anymore.

Why...why, father?

I Was Told

I don't know what I'm doing here.

I'm not ready for this.

I should be somewhere else.

Another Dimension or another universe.

No one ever told me

How hard life was going to be.

Or how betrayal humans were to one another

Because it was their nature.

No. No, no one ever told me that.

I was told life was easy.

I was never told I had to work for it.

But I could be a princess in the poor society.

That's what I was told.

I was told a lie that effected me.

I was told a sacrifice 

that I didn't realize I was doing.

Yes, that's what I was told.

Pure Like Honey

I love you, Honey.

So pure...so beautiful.

You drive me insane,

Urging me to touch you.

I want to touch you,

I want to feel your skin.

I want to taste your neck.

May your purity be washed with my sin.

Such delicate erotic Ecstasy.

You make me bite my lip,

Whenever I see you smiling.

You are my nature's mist.

You are my goddess,

My mistress.

One I cannot touch nor feel,

But I can love you

In my world,

For you are Pure Like Honey.

Forget Everything For Now

I've always wanted to look up at the sky.

Just once more...

And forget about anything...and everything...

Life...death...past...future...today...tomorrow...

Leave my thoughts beneath the ground,

And sleep...forever and ever.

Forget everyone and everything.

I want to die a different death,

And be reborn again.

And visit my grave that stands before me.

But I'll open my eyes,

And keep them open for a while.

I'm not dead, yet.

Just not yet.

That Girl, Inessa

She's cute, I'll tell you that.

Blonde hair, green eyes.

That hair will bring you memories.

And those eyes-man, those eyes,

Look away.

'Cause those eyes,

They stare at your soul the second you look into them.

With those eyes, she's like the devil.

She'll steal your blind soul.

And take control of you.

Like a master and its puppet.

You'll be that lifeless body,

While she repaints your whole reality

And your point of view of almost everything around you.

She'll put you under her spell.

A love spell that will have you

Searching for her for days.

Just to see that little pretty face of hers.

Don't let her fool you, though.

Because she'll try to avoid you

In the end.

Shucks, That Girl, Inessa.

You Were Pretty Explicit

It all started with a stare.

A stare that with the laughter

That distracted us.

Our gazes still locked,

As if nothing could keep us from staring.

And when we danced,

Your grasp upon my shoulder,

Showed me how much you wanted me.

That dance came unto our bed,

Where we danced our dance.

Your skin tasted with such delicacy,

And your lips that cradled,

As they laid upon mine.

Your hands caressed my neck, hair, and back,

Showering me in unexplainable goosebumps

That had brought me to my final state of our dance.

Your actions...your words of love were pretty explicit.

A Wish Forgotten

My parents...my family...

Splitting apart-we're like a pack of wolves

That were once together,

finally eating and murdering each other.

My parents make me want to run away.

It's my fault they fight...

My fault I don't make myself clear to them.

I wish...I wish I can see God.

I want to meet and see Him for myself.

I want to know His knowledge of everything.

I want to hold His hand and walk with Him.

Not just in my dreams...but when I go to school,

Or to my room and just speak about...life.

I wish I was different.

I wish I didn't lie all the time.

I wish I was blind,

So I wouldn't have these eyes for girls.

I wish God could forgive me.

I wish I could ask Him to make me reborn

And start a new life over.

I want to see my brother and fly with him,

in the clouds and ask him for advice.

I want to be his servant, just to see him.

I want to hug and kiss my brother,

and laugh with him.

I want to know what heaven is like,

and how the angels look.

I want to live again,

and have a different mind for things.

I want to be smarter and happier and not so depressed.

I want a good future.

I want to talk to God about all my problems and ask for His advice.

I know it wouldn't happen though.

My eyes, my heart is too filthy to see God.

I have sinned far too much that my plead,

for forgiveness is forgotten everyday

by God, Himself.

My tears are filthy with sin as I cry for forgiveness.

I'll never see my brother's beautiful face nor those wings that hold him.

My words art simply dust that has been swept up...

By God, Himself.

Seduce My Darkness

The world has made me sob.
Cry upon my own unknown mistakes.
Ones that I feel aren't wrong or right.
Human nature has denied and betrayed me.
Though, I am not pure nor a sinner.

Their blade has murdered me of claustrophobia.
Their distorting voices have pierced my brain.
My hands cannot defend your territory.
 I cannot stand the pain and the noise.

I plead to be invisible to this world.
I'm infected to this world.
I'm judged by the hypocrisy and cruelty.
Your accusations make me wither like black roses.


I beg you to bail me out of this battle of mine.
I am disturbed, distraught, and drained of my emotions.
My mind is on edge of quitting.
Yet, you have come for me...my shadow.
You have sung your lullaby to me
 and surrounded me with your sinful desires.

Oh, the hallucination of your fantasies and sorrow.
How it drives me with your ecstasy.
You've ambushed me with your terrifying needs.
Your voice has made me your puppet.
I am your child; your slave.
I am your lost orphan found in the sin of love.


You've granted me your gift of beauty and erection.
Subdue me with your love and exotic abduction.
Leave me in agony for more of your torturing and cruelty.
Leave me an appetite for love and destruction.

I drink your blood as a toast to rebirth and sin.
You have given birth to me into your world.
You have perfected me by your love spell.
Riddles and fairy tales erase my memory of reality.
You've erased my identity and personality.

Satisfy my longing need.
Invoke my deepest thoughts and desires.
Expose my veins to the bitter salt of the ground.
Color me with your dangerous love.
Make me obey the one I love.

Guard me from the crucial light.
Protect me in the darkness of your wings.
Protect me in my sleep within the day,
And venture with me through our nights.

You have taken over me.
You have made me into your puppet.
Your power has become stronger to me.
Your echoes of love have collapsed me to fatigue.
Your mirage has stripped me of my senses.

I can no longer keep you in my heart,
Yet, I know that you are still here.
You have found my throat to end my life.
Your dagger is not feared.

Know that I am unafraid of you.
Your threat still calls to my love.
You cannot destroy me.
For you will only destroy your puppet that keeps you alive.
You fear to lose me...your hand will soon lose that dagger.
And we will be together again...for eternity.

My Little Seed

You are new to this harsh world,

My Little Seed.

For you art still pure for the dirty deeds.

Your greatest sin has been,

of coming to this world.

And the long road ahead is full of sin.

No more than a blink of an eye,

is it a sin against The Almighty.

So behave yourself, little one.

Be wise but know what you say.

Be truthful but know what is the truth.

So sleep my beautiful child.

For your journey is long,

and full of life's obstacles and struggles,

must you overcome to happiness.

Sleep my child.

For your journey is long to come.

Daddy, Daddy...Hear Me Out

My dad showed me the message you sent him, 

I understand what you're saying
and I understand what my dad is saying also 

Yes. I refer to him as my dad, yes.

Orlando was my hero when I was little

And I kept that in my heart.

But witnessing him leaving

I knew he wasn't going to come back

I don't know why he decided to be so distant from us.

I have dreams about him coming back and I cry,
knowing that its only a dream.

I feel like
he's afraid of wanting to know how I feel.

I just feel like he doesn't want me to be around him

Simply because his life is different
but I have loved him
all my life.

And even now I wish that he was here,
but he's broken my heart so many times,
without him knowing
that ive already given up.

I don't know what to feel anymore of him

I've tried already...

I want to face him,

I want to hear his voice,
but I'm so scared and...unprepared.